When I was younger, I was never into things that other girls were into. If I wanted dolls of some sort, I wanted action figures. There were a few times that I asked for actual barbie dolls, but it was only because my sister and friends would always want to play with them. I liked to play with race cars and action figures like Buzz Lightyear. My mom didn't really mind much by it because I still had alot of friends and none of them judged me. Soon it did start to bother her though because she started having to force me to wear a dress, even on picture day.
I can remember one time for sure, when I used to go to the Boys and Girls, where my mom told me I wasn't girly enough. I was in middle school around the time and all my friends were either guys or gils who were just like me, not girly. Everyday after school we all rode the bus to the Boys and Girls Club where we would do homework for two hours, then afterwards we could do whatever activities we wanted. I always wanted to play flag football with the guys. Flag football was the only kind of football allowed after a while because girls like me always wanted to play. Surprisingly, I was one of the best players. At first, I was picked last because I was a girl but then they saw I was one of the fastest ones and then I was almost always picked first. Soon the football tryouts for middle school was coming up, and I was playing flag football every day to try and get better. I hadn't told my mom or dad yet because I knew they wouldn't like it, but I also figured they would support me anyway.
Finally the day of tryouts came, and not only did my mom tell me it wouldn't "look" right if I played football but so did the coaches and all my teachers. They all said people would assume I was gay and would give me a bad reputation. Even though I tried out for other sports and enjoyed them, that experience made me pick out what activities to do more carefully in fear of how I may be viewed as "ungirly."
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